I miss everything about my ex man, I miss his hugs, his kisses, spending time with him, I miss his cologne and how he always smelt good, I miss cuddling with him and laying on his chest, I miss his dogs and talking to his family, I miss riding around in his car around town, we didn't even have a toxic relationship things were healthy, I've come to the realization that because of poor communication our relationship ended, there were things I could of done better but he never communicated until it was too late and he lost his feelings for me. It's been 36 days at this point. I've reestablished no contact 3 days ago because talking to him resulted in me feeling high highs and then extreme lows once he stopped responding. I hate heartbreak I just want to stop feeling so bad constantly and it feels like me talking to him relieves some of this stress but that's not healthy for me.
Last updated on:2025-12-30T07:35:44+05:30
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when you imagine reaching out to him again, is it because you miss him, or because you’re trying to escape how bad the silence feels right now?
Honestly, the silence feels bad when I sit and ruminate on it but now that i've had a day where I stay busy all day
I miss mine as well but not the constant accusald nor mood swings and arguing
no contact felt brutal for me at first, but the highs and crashes were destroying me too. the calm comes slowly, not all at once. reestablishing it is HARD but it usually means you’re choosing yourself, even when it hurts
i missed the smell, the car rides, even his dog too 😭 when it wasn’t toxic it almost hurts worse, like there’s no villain. just two people who didn’t say things out loud in time. i’ve been there.
update: no longer going feral about it anymore I feel better.