I feel I’ll never be able to forget him or fully move on. We had real love and care, many similarities that made me feel he was the one. But from the beginning, along with love, there was insecurity and abuse. He compared me, was obsessed and would threaten me if I asked for a breakup, it was confusing, he would love me intensely, then hurt me even more.
We tried breaking up many times but couldn’t, because we both loved each other. Slowly, I also became toxic like I started lashing out and losing my mental stability. I felt unsafe and pressured, yet I needed him and felt I couldn’t live without him.
We finally broke up this year after he crossed a serious line during a fight and even came to my house to meet my parents when I didn’t pick his call. After two months, he came back to me, changed, kinder, more mature. We spent two good months together with only small arguments, handled better than before. I felt even more love for him then.
A few days ago, a petty fight turned ugly, he used abusive words, I got badly triggered, and things exploded again. Now we’re broken up.
My family is against this relationship. They believe love without respect can’t lead to a happy marriage, and I know they’re not wrong. He never truly respected me, and now everything feels too damaged. Families and friends got dragged in, I lost almost all my friends, and the situation feels embarrassing and exhausting.
Most of our relationship was long-distance, which frustrated him. I couldn’t make him happy, and he couldn’t make me feel emotionally safe or respected.
I know we don’t work and maybe we’re both too toxic now. Still, I love him deeply, and I feel like I’ll never be able to forget him or imagine seeing him with someone else.
Last updated on:2026-01-02T22:31:07+05:30
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are you giving yourself space from him right now?
I can't give myself we are not talking he blocked me, and I'm trying to keep myself as busy as possible but all day I keep on checking my phone to see if he messaged or called I also made a fake account to stalk him because otherwise I feel really anxious, entire day I feel anxious inside miss him feel bad
you’re finally seeing the toxicity clearly. maybe focus on healing yourself first, setting boundaries, and slowly letting go it’s not easy but your peace matters most
I knew it was toxic but at the same time he loved me a lot too, which made me confused but now I'll heal myself first everything else comes later, I don't know if I'll ever reconcile with him or not but I hope with time I heal and live a better life.
i’ve been there too 😔 with someone i loved hard but it was all over the place love, fights, obsession. it feels impossible to let go at first, i get it
yes, same thing happened love fights obsession all sorts of madness at once, how did you overcome from it?
Hi dear, i just wanna say, ur story is really heartbreaking, im sorry u gotta go through this. Remeber u r not alone, u have a family and friends, that, i hope, understand u and support u. Also something my therapist has said to me often is, u dont have to forget him. u pbbly had a lot of wonderful moments and that is almost imposible to forget. but u have to accept that, that is not the reality anymore and that what u r holding on to is in the past. u definetely dont have to forget him, that would be a wrong path to go. you have to deattatch, let him go or more likely push him away. its not going to be easy and also not fast, but it will happen and when it happens it will feel extremely good. u pbbly wont even notice that its getting better, one day u will wake up and notice that u can make decision without really caring how its going to affect "his memory" and that is a feeling worth it. even if the way is long and hard, its better thn just going back to him and be unhappy and let him disrespect u. believe me, im going through my first break up with who ive always been in love with, but its not my first hard moment and the feeling of being released of that toxic feeling is kind of the same and its worth everything u might go through. I hope it helps u and be sure eventhough we dont know eachother i support u and hope u make it through this tough time💜
Thank you so much for reading my story and reaching out to me, it's means a lot. yes it's really tough I miss him and love him so much, and I feel guilty that due to a petty argument again we are separated, I feel like I was a bad partner maybe that's why he disrespected or don't know but these days are really heavy and confusing.
@FrostBuzz188 hi, its okay that you may feel guilty, but remember you saying things or whatever doesnt jusify him doing the same, a partner should give balance, if that doesnt work, thn you should work it out, and if it doesnt work out, thn, as harsh as it sounds, you r not meant for eachother. i really hope you make it through this and find your peace. remember its not your fault, or even if in that argument you said something wrong, there is always 2 necesary parties for an argument! I really hope the best for u
@HappyWander533 Thank you so much for your kind words, you really helped me understand a lot. I'm glad I posted everything here and got so much support.