why can't I stop

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I've reset this no contact clock more then 5 times in the past 3 months
every time it feels like I'm starting over
sometimes it makes me feel better to just hear from him talk to him but then the days after I just cry
my heart breaks every time and every time I feel alittle hope and then realize I mean nothing to him anymore đź’”

Last updated on:2026-01-05T20:49:48+05:30

Comments (8)

magnum
magnum 2 mths ago

when you do reach out and hear from him, what are you hoping it’ll give you in that moment?

ladyT
ladyT 2 mths ago

honestly I want him to say we can try and he will change and do better

healing26
healing26 2 mths ago

what makes you unable to block communication with him?

ladyT
ladyT 2 mths ago

the fact that he was my best friend I want to call him for every little thing

leavehope
leavehope 2 mths ago

i reset no contact so many times i lost count. every reply from him felt like oxygen, then the crash after was brutal. that hope part? that’s the sharpest pain.

ladyT
ladyT 2 mths ago

I feel like I'm addicted to him even after everything his done to me

letitgo_user
letitgo_user 2 mths ago

He broke up with me two years ago, and for two years I cut off all contact, then I'd go back, only to have my heart broken. I'd discover there was no hope for him, that I was unimportant, that I was living in a fantasy. And so the cycle continued. But seven days ago, I made a decision, and I hope I'll stick to it as the new year begins: to respect myself and my decision not to contact him. He hasn't made a single move in the last two years. So, I advise you not to contact him again because it hasn't worked. It took me two years and many days to realize that. If he loved you, he wouldn't do this; he would be the one to try, not the other way around.
love your self You deserve someone better❤️

ladyT
ladyT 2 mths ago

thank you so much and I'm sorry you had to go through all that pain
I sent him a happy new year message and he left me on read with no reply I think that the last straw I won't contact him again I have to accept i mean nothing to him and he only contacted me in the past 3 months because he was lonely and horny and I made the mistake to sleep with him 3 times but I hope this year I can be stronger