Today I felt angry. Like…really angry.
My mom kept mentioning my ex, saying things like “oh he’ll be in shock when he sees her eating,” talking about my daughter. And it honestly set me back. It brought up everything.
He’s abandoned her three times now. Hasn’t reached out to check on her. And I couldn’t stop thinking about the time I had to take her to the hospital with a fever by myself while he went quiet for a month and a half like it was nothing. I’ve changed my mind. I don’t want someone who pops in and out to ever have access to my child. A kid doesn’t deserve inconsistency or disappearing acts. I really think he assumes he’ll always have access just because we have a child together and that doesn’t sit right with me anymore. Anyway…today was heavy. Still no contact. Still choosing my peace and my daughter. Therapy on Wednesday because wow, thank God for that 😮💨
Last updated on:2026-01-10T07:24:12+05:30
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im commenting cus i need to tick off my daily log😔
when your mom brings him up, does it feel more like grief resurfacing, or like your boundaries being ignored when you’re already holding so much?
Definitely feels like my boundaries are being ignored. I'm trying to move forward, and those reminders just make the weight I'm already carrying feel heavier.
people casually mentioning my ex like it’s nothing, while i was carrying ALL the parenting alone. the disappearing acts hit different when there’s a child involved. that anger makes sense.
Thank you for saying that. It really does hit different when there’s a child involved. Carrying it all alone while he just pops in and out is exhausting.