Tmrw will be 50 days without him , and everyone told me by this point i would feel better . I do cry less about him , but i feel as if my heart gets heavier as the days go on . The more days that add on , the more the realisation that he isn’t coming back hits me . And it hurts , badly. No one understands how well he matched me and how important he made me feel , and now i’m alone again . when i’m alone at night i miss calling him , ranting to him and hearing him tell me that he loved me . I miss how comfortable we were with eacother . the thought of dating someone else makes me feel sick .
Last updated on:2026-01-07T11:46:47+05:30
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I’m going through something similar. what I try to think about is does he want to be with me? or do I just need the attention and the validation I got from being with him. don’t reach out you can do it.
when you think about him at night, do you miss him, or do you miss who you were when you felt chosen and safe with him?
some days the grief was quieter, some days louder, but both were part of it
hitting a milestone like that and realizing, oh… this is real now, he’s not coming back. i cried less too, but the weight got heavier. missing the comfort and the “i love you” at night was the worst
I understand you. Be proud of you for not texting or calling him. That's what I'm failing with currently.
I will get better but it needs more time. For my 5 year relationship, I needed 2 years to get somewhat happy again.
How old are you? When you are really a teenager - you have so much time to find a new person that fits your life and emotions. I'm nearly 30 🙈