am i paying for it now??

i should have known he would hurt me because when we got together am the one who approached him ,,, i dont know if he thought i was desperate because of that ,, he was already in a 2 year relationship with another girl i had no idea about that i swear if i had known i would have stayed as far away as possible from him,, and while he was in a 2 year relationship he was also in another few months relationship with another girl i found out last year about that girl she told me he was cheating on her with me and another girl i wish i knew i felt so bad and guilty i wish i knew and when i asked him about it he lied and got angry and disconnected the phone and mind you we were already celebrating 5 years together

Last updated on:2026-01-08T08:02:30+05:30

Comments (4)

lonlyemo
lonlyemo 2 mths ago

when you look back now, what hurts more, the cheating itself or the way he lied, got angry, and shut you down when you asked?

BraveTribe871
BraveTribe871 2 mths ago

all of it hurts badly

NotHealed
NotHealed 2 mths ago

the guilt faded a bit when i finally accepted that lying for 5 years is a CHOICE, not a misunderstanding. i didn’t know either, and not knowing doesn’t make you complicit

lifedrama
lifedrama 2 mths ago

approached him first and when everything blew up later, i blamed myself so hard. like maybe he thought i was desperate, maybe i made it easy to lie to me. finding out YEARS in that i was just one piece of a bigger mess messed me up in a way i still can’t fully explain