Halfway to 100 , and to be honest it’s not getting better . Although i don’t cry about him as much , my heart still yearns for him in a way i can’t understand . He isn’t all i think about anymore , but then when i realise i haven’t thought about him in a while my thoughts spiral and all of a sudden im in this deep hole of remembering how happy i was with him . I genuinely believe it was one of the best 18 months of my life and i stand by that .
If it wasn’t for long distance i believe with all my heart that we had the potential to work out and be with eacother forever , even tho we are both only young. He was my best friend and cared for me in a way no one ever had . And now i probably won’t see him ever again. If it’s meant to be it will be , but i miss him so much idont want to imagine dating someone else .
I wonder if he misses me too , or if he still thinks about me . the last thing he told me was that he loves me and he won’t find anyone better but it’s for the best and our whole relationship he always told me he loved me and couldn’t live without me . but now he’s gone . and i don’t know what to do .
Last updated on:2026-01-08T03:39:48+05:30
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when you think about not wanting to imagine dating anyone else, does it feel more like loyalty to what you had… or fear of never feeling that safe again
@magnum both to be honest
little is letting the missing exist without turning it into meaning. like, missing them doesn’t mean you made the wrong choice or that it was destiny. it just means it mattered. sometimes that’s all it is.
i’m halfway out too and this hit way too close 😮💨 i remember that exact spiral. being “okay” for a bit, then realizing i hadn’t thought about them and suddenly my chest drops. my relationship was also the best stretch of my life, and losing my best friend hurt more than losing the partner part. that whiplash between peace and grief is REAL.
you just summed up all my feelings. break ups are so evil. im so sorry.