ang bigat pa rin pala talaga. I hope di ko na siya balikan, kayanin ko na sana magmove forward
(it is still heavy. I hope I wont go back to him anymore, I hope I can move forward already this time)
Last updated on:2026-01-10T01:24:26+05:30
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what’s been hardest for you lately letting go of memories, or resisting the urge to reach out again?
More on resisting the urge, old me would say the first one but those things that he have done tainted too much the memories we had. I gave that guy a lot of chances despite all the horrible things he have done but then in the end he still did it all again, he was still the same and that made me reached my last straw but hopefull it is the final. He was my first and our rs lasted for a year so it is kinda hard and it is true when they said the body or ur systems is kinda experiencing withdrawal from the usual habit or experience your body was already accustomed to when you were still on a rs and I feel like that is one of the factors that is making me go back but I do try my best not to get too affected by it and think of the things to remind myself why I shouldnt let myself go back and one of the things I say to myself is, should I betray myself again just for a guy like him?
take it day by day. even small steps count like not checking his stuff or keeping busy with friends. it helps the weight feel a little lighter over time.
thank youu, it also get evet more hard because I do not have friends that can be my support system for this...but Ive always been trying to be strong
i kept telling myself i was done too, but the heaviness lingered for weeks. it DOES take time, even when you’re ready to move on
thank youu it feels a bit better to know that Im not the only one going thru this and to be understood