You know the worst part of slipping slowly into madness, you are aware its happening, maybe even how to stop it, but are actually powerless to do so. I know exactly whats happened to me, whats happening and what's going to happen, and I can't change it or stop it. I invested too much in her, gave too much of myself and my power for someone to crush me, and now I'm paying that price. A break up is suppose to be challenging and painful, but for someone who was already on a path out of the light, it provides a solid push into the darkness, just because I put my heart and whole heart into someone who trashed it
Last updated on:2026-01-09T23:44:57+05:30
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right now, what part hurts more, losing her, or losing the version of you that existed before you gave her everything
I honestly couldn't say
the tiniest relief came when i stopped judging myself for how deep i went. loving hard wasn’t the mistake. trusting someone who couldn’t carry it was.
thats just great, don't suppose anyone knows the magic formula for trusting someone who can carry the deep love would be?
watching myself unravel in real time and still not able to stop it. giving someone THAT much power over your sanity is terrifying. when it ended, i felt like i’d fallen off the last bit of light i had.
worse part is when u fully commit thats the type of vulnerability you put out there. And the reward is epic suffering. Its no wonder that people are mostly unwilling to truly share themselves or connect