In early December I woke up to a message from my then‑boyfriend
In early December I woke up to a message from my then‑boyfriend. It was a list of all the reasons he didn’t want to be with me anymore. I was shattered.
Every point he made cut straight into my most vulnerable places. It felt almost deliberately cruel even though he swore it wasn’t. Regardless of his intention it broke me.
I didn’t want to get out of bed. I didn’t even have the strength to cry. All I could do was lie there waiting for something to save me.
But later that evening something shifted.
I decided I wasn’t going to just sit around and wait for the pain to fade.
Music has always been my safe space so I chose to turn my heartbreak into an EP. The process became therapy for me especially the raw angry and even petty tracks.
So I got up and I pushed through the heartbreak in my own way. It still hurts sometimes but then I remind myself: I managed to transform it. And that gives me hope.
Comments (5)
I'm so proud of you!
when you listen back to the EP now, does it feel like you’re hearing the version of you who survived it, or the one who was still bleeding
i love that you didn’t wait for the pain to magically pass.
i got a breakup text once that listed my “flaws” like bullet points and it rewired my brain for months. i remember lying there numb too. turning that pain into something creative is powerful as hell
Yes, that’s really cool. Bravo!