Yesterday marked three months since the breakup and I still can’t shake the feeling that a part
Yesterday marked three months since the breakup and I still can’t shake the feeling that a part of me was ripped away when she left. I’ve definitely improved compared to those first days but this mix of restlessness and emptiness is wearing me down.
Work is the only thing I look forward to now it keeps me distracted and busy. But the moment I clock out and head home the pain returns. The urge to reach out to somehow put myself in a situation where I might see her and the constant reminiscing all come flooding back.
The last 36 hours have been especially rough. I’ve slept nearly 22 of those hours just trying to escape the heaviness. I managed to shower and go through my routine and while doing so I thought about things I could do alone. I even looked up movie showings and picked one but when I saw that most of the seats were taken the thought of sitting right under the screen or squeezed between strangers felt unbearable. So here I am again lying in bed wondering if this feeling will ever fade.
These three months have felt both endless and fleeting at the same time. I still haven’t reached out since day two she’s blocked everywhere.
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Maybe you could get a second part time job to fill the empty space. Better yet, try some volunteering. I did and it was great. It felt really good to help others and it made me forget about my problems. If you love animals, you could volunteer at your local animal shelter. Maybe take up a new hobby. Exercise increases endorphins that lift your mood.
when you think about reaching out or seeing her, is it about missing HER, or missing the version of yourself that existed when she was still there
same here tbh😪
what you wrote doesn’t sound like failure at all. it sounds like grief doing its weird looping thing. when i couldn’t do big solo plans, i started with tiny ones, just leaving the house without an agenda helped a bit
around month three i thought i was “better” and then the emptiness hit harder. work was my safe zone too, then nights were brutal. i slept just to not feel. being blocked made it feel so final
I feel your pain. You need to stop romanticizing your ex. write a list of all the things that were terrible and look at it when you feel alone. you need to do things you enjoyed before the breakup. hang with friends, look on meetup and join some groups. keep yourself busy. you deserve peace dont beat yourself up. you are a person of worth and value
I did that. I kept reminding myself of only the bad things and not the good. My anger has helped me to maintain 205 days of no contact so far.