it was his birthday today. thought about texting him and wish him a hb but i didn't. it's so weird to think that he is still out there living life. I don't miss him as my boyfriend but I miss him as my best friend. We also hit 6 months since the break up 2 days ago. A perfect lyric to sum up how I feel is "I feel more free than I have in years, six feet in the ground" - doomsday by Lizzy McAlpine. I have such mixed feelings about him, I hate him for how he treated me the last few months of our relationship but god I will always have the sweet boy I fell in love with in my heart. I wonder if he will wish me a hb when i turn a year older in a month...
Last updated on:2026-01-17T17:11:02+05:30
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even though for the sake of having loved someone so dearly, I would've atleast sent one text of atleast the formal wish
please do not make me feel bad for not texting him. He was emotionally abuse the last 2 months of our relationship and I know if I texted him it would feed his ego that he's the man and I still think about him.
I get it, I can only say how sorry I am for you as I know the feeling. It’s my ex boyfriend of two years birthday next month and I’ve got his present just sat waiting that I’ll never give him, it is still so fresh. I was in a similar situation in the last few months. Things weren’t exactly right in our relationship and I think it’s really important for you to just remember that the memories of him might never go away but they weaken you are definitely allowed to grieve at such a raw time, but it’s important you remember that that’s not the person that he is anymore and he’s not going to be. He’s grown or has choose to change and in a way you do and don’t have the right to be mad, you can be angry that he chose to change to treat you so bad, but if that’s the person he wanted to be or he naturally grew into you can’t be too mad and you can only just be lucky that you left when you did. I would probably say that I don’t think it would be a good idea for you to message him (it’s always best to leave them wonder) if not they aren’t as interested. I’m sure you want him to be thinking and wondering about you and if you give him the opportunity to know how you feel at the moment firstly he no longer has to think he’s just given it. – And might not exactly then want to know. However, it’s also important for your own well-being and healing. I know it’s new and so you’re probably still care about him a lot so as it’s his birthday I’d give him the day and not message. It’s a day you’ll probably remember and I don’t think I personally would want to cry and be so upset on my birthday because I’ve had such an emotional interaction with someone I love so deeply. I hope you feel better soon.
A quote of the day is
“you can stay on the train, but the longer you stay the more it costs to get off”🙂
thank you for thanking the time writing should a thoughtful message ❤️
If you look at my earlier post it goes in to more detail but he had brain surgery and changed completely so I'm still grieving the boy that "died" and the whole trauma of him being hospitalized.