an avoidant

he is an avoidant
no matter what I do he is not coming back
I have to live with his name on my body for life
He has chosen silence and moved ahead like nothing ever existed
How should I block him so easily from my mind from my body where even if I try to get rid of his name it would take me a whole year of repeated pain
Why is that coming in a relationship requires two person's yes but ending it just can be done by one
The promises the words the emotions that I trusted even though I have in written from him he is denying of ever making now
Feeling so cheap worthless and ugly
wish I was a bit more beautiful wish I was able to not care of any commitment wish I was also the idc kind of person and move ahead
Wish I could forget him and stop atleast crying myself to sleep and break the cycle of 1.5 years

Last updated on:2026-01-21T01:25:03+05:30

Comments (7)

StillAche
StillAche a mth ago

when you think about his name on your body, is the pain more about him leaving, or about feeling like you stayed and believed longer than he ever did

ChillFlex399
ChillFlex399 a mth ago

just split from an avoidant recently , no matter how many times you explain its like hitting your head against a brick wall, ive had no choice but to block and cry about it because its hurting me more staying basic needs like time cant even be met .

letitgo_user
letitgo_user a mth ago

get a cover up and get something that will show how far you have come

SadEnough
SadEnough a mth ago

i’m so sorry. when i was stuck in that loop, what helped a little was separating his silence from my worth. avoidants rewrite history to survive. it doesn’t mean you imagined the love or the promises

ChillFlick299
ChillFlick299 a mth ago

my bf ended things on sunday after 2 years and 11 months. I know that I'll be okay but it just does not feel like it right now.

FlexVibe195
FlexVibe195 a mth ago

I also dated an avoidant. it's very disturbing. I fell abandoned like trash. but I know it's about me but about his incompetence and immaturity, it's easy to run away from himself. I chosed to do different, I am diving deep in my self and find my worth. the pain is going away slowly. it had no future, we all deserve better, consistent effort, being choosen no matter what. I wish you strength. don't give up on you. hug.

fearlessG
fearlessG a mth ago

i dated an avoidant too, promised forever then disappeared like none of it mattered. i remember feeling branded by the relationship, like my body and memories still belonged to him while he walked free. that imbalance HURT