I can’t cry anymore. I want to feel sad to process to let it sink in that I’ll never see S again. But instead the tears won’t come. I feel distant from him disconnected like we no longer hold any meaning for each other. Deep down I know there’s no turning back. What he did was unforgivable intolerable.
I can barely remember what it felt like to be loved by him and that realization hurts. Even more I don’t feel love for him anymore it’s dull numb empty. That frightens me. Letting go makes me uncomfortable yet when I do it feels strangely right.
I listen to our songs and feel like a fraud. What saddens me most is how small I allowed myself to become while I was with him. And yet the future feels lighter brighter. I feel guilty for moving on so quickly but the truth is he’s the one who caused this.
Last updated on:2026-01-21T01:09:03+05:30
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it will be okay
Who broke up with who
I was there. I get it. I felt it was too early, I wanted to cry a bit more.
Just know you're still processing. That feeling of emptiness, the panic of forgetting that love, all of those are still feelings. Sit with them like you'd sit with yourself when you cry.