I got into a relationship back in school and for two years things were mostly fine

I got into a relationship back in school and for two years things were mostly fine. Later I even chose a particular college because of her. Three months after joining we broke up that time it was my fault and we didn’t speak for three months. Eventually we got back together and for a couple of months she gave me hope and everything felt okay. Then out of nowhere she broke up again saying she was stressed because of me even though I hadn’t done anything wrong.
We stayed apart for almost six months before she reached out asking to try again. We got back together and for about a month and a half she seemed happy. But soon after she admitted she had lost interest confessed she’d been faking her feelings for weeks and broke up with me yesterday.
What hurts the most is realizing she never truly chose me and treated me poorly. She even tried moving on with a casual relationship with another guy only to come back to me again and then leave once more saying she didn’t feel anything anymore.
Now we’re stuck in the same college block and will be in adjacent classes for the next 3.5 years. I feel like she used me yet part of me still wants her and still has feelings. I can’t shake the thought that she was out of my league and I’m scared that if I let her go I may never find another partner.
She has a huge circle of friends both male and female while I don’t even have a single female friend and seeing her surrounded by people makes it even harder.

Last updated on:2026-01-23T17:56:03+05:30