With my birthday here (and his right after) all the feelings I’ve been trying to push aside are catching up to me.
I realize I truly miss him not just the relationship I hoped for but him as a friend someone to talk to someone who would text me throughout the day and genuinely care about how my day went.
I feel lonely and I know I got my hopes up in him. There’s jealousy too because I can’t shake the thought that he might have someone else while I don’t.
It’s stressful because having a relationship with him felt like it could have been the one bright spot in my darker days.
Last updated on:2026-01-24T01:09:03+05:30
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do you think you’re missing him specifically, or missing how safe and seen you felt when someone consistently showed up for you during hard days
i get that jealousy spiral so much. when it hit me, i tried to remind myself that missing someone doesn’t mean they were meant to stay.
birthdays were brutal for me too. i didn’t just miss my ex as a partner, i missed my PERSON. the one who checked in, remembered dumb details, cared. losing the friendship part hurt even more