Damnit, this is a weird feeling. 6 months since everything went wrong suddenly. Hmm... I'm not going to lie. I feel all the grief was for nothing. It didn't bring me anything good. And that kinda sucks? Admitting how pointless was cry for him, cry because he left. So what?
The only thing I did doing this was loose myself. And I'm so tired. I'm 23, and I should be crying for not having a job, not having a driver's license, not having my own house. The clock is ticking. And it's not like I still have those feelings inside me, but gosh, my mental energy should be focused on having a life?? Nobody is going to knock my door and gift me anything or giving me the wasted time I spend 6 months crying and doing overall nothing. I'm pushing 30, life is more than a break up and my goal this year is to do shit for myself. I want to end December not feeling like a punching bag.
I'm tired and my body wants to give up, but I can't.
This is my 6 months no contact reflection.
byebye
Last updated on:2026-01-27T21:22:03+05:30
Comments (3)
when you say you don’t want to end december feeling like a punching bag, what would feeling STRONG look like for you, even in a small way
i read it as you waking up. when i hit that “life is bigger than this breakup” moment, it didn’t erase the pain, but it gave me direction. focusing on myself slowly brought my energy back
i had the same realization, like damn… all that crying and i still had bills, goals, life waiting. i felt stupid and angry at myself. grief can feel so pointless in hindsight