im trapped in a trauma bond. and with a narcissist.
and i fucking broke the no contact . and it was the worst and the best decision I've ever made. thank to his stupidity or... underestimating me and thinking I'll never leave him, now i know exactly what i want. i really was testing him all this time and i went into one conclusion: this man is a predator and doesn't really love me. i was so naive and i loved a person who never cared no matter how much i cried and abused me.he made fun of me ,he tried to throw dirt on my name, he mocked me,made me feel so unsafe, tired to hack my accounts yet i strayed. i mean i left at first and i hated him . but after some time the hate disappeared and i got back to him. he never refused me. he always accepted me again no matter how many times i leave. and i know that man is fucking crazy. thank god i broke no contact. and thank god he's stupid. i just got clarity from god because i was asking him about what should i do, please give me a sign. and he did. i mean nothing to that man and I'm just his favorite toy. I'm fucking leaving.no exuses, no comebacks no pulls again,no bullshit. I'm DONE.
thank u for reading 🤍
Last updated on:2026-01-28T02:08:40+05:30
Comments (8)
when you say you’re done, what feels different in your body this time compared to all the other times you tried to leave
the only difference is when u just had enough of every action they did and you had enough of their games u just pick urself up
i’m really glad you listened to that clarity.
I’ve been struggling with the trauma bond connected to my ex also. it’s so goddamn hard! then all of a sudden out of the blue a guy drops into my DMS and has completely taken my mind off the X and has given me back my confidence and has changed everything! I suggest you do the same! good luck x
i had this idea too ig that's what I'm going to do..
this shook me. i was in a trauma bond with a narcissist too, kept leaving and going back, convinced myself it meant “connection.” the clarity only came after i broke no contact again. realizing i was just a toy HURT, but it saved me
girl same for me i just realized i was nothing for him he is sick,like sickly obsessed with me in a crazy way, he makes it look that way but all he wants is control and domination and i was the perfect suply for that. now I'm DONE and it fucking hurts so bad i had multiple breakdowns because i also realized no matter how much i love him it won't change anything.
if I don't pick myself up I'm gonna live silenced and in hell all my damn life. and that SURELY will NEVER happen. girl i know it's hard but you just gotta pick yourself up and leave. close all doors and he won't come back. he will beg for you and threaten because narcs are predictable and all act the same way because they are the NPCs of this world. you can leave, you got this.
like same i had my clarity only after no contact and i was romantisizing about that asshole before. thank god my vision is free.