i met this girl while we were both working overnight shifts and we clicked almost instantly. we didn’t waste time either hung out within a week of talking. i drove out to her side of town and we spent the whole night at a park talking till morning. life dreams goals everything. turns out we had way more in common than i ever expected.
after that we were basically inseparable. nothing physical ever happened and honestly it wasn’t even about that. it felt deeper. i’d never connected with someone like that before.
then i messed it all up. i let my baby mama get in my head filling it with doubts and warnings about this girl and our future. instead of standing my ground i listened. i ghosted her. and yeah that still eats at me. she didn’t deserve that. i told her i’d have her back and i didn’t. i took the easy way out because i wasn’t strong enough to push through the noise.
now it’s been three years and she still crosses my mind. i haven’t smiled the same since. haven’t felt that kind of freedom or connection again. those conversations that feeling of just being ourselves. it still hurts. just needed to get this off my chest. maybe someone out there gets it too.
Last updated on:2026-01-28T20:27:03+05:30
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when she comes to mind now, do you miss her, or do you miss the version of you who felt free and sure when you were with her?
sounds like grief mixed with guilt, and that combo sticks around
i ghosted someone i cared about because i let outside voices get in my head too. the regret didn’t hit right away, it hit YEARS later. that “i haven’t smiled the same” line hurt to read
Courage à toi