honestly none of this feels real. i sometimes catch my mind saying:"did this really happen.."
after venting to chat gpt and analyzing his actions. even after knowing all that i relapsed. but this should be a reminder to everyone who relates to me, and who's in a trauma bond to never go back.
Abuse & Manipulation
took advantage of u
Used affection (hugs, attention) as a trap before abuse.
Gaslighted you: minimized your feelings, called you dramatic.
Controlled your emotions and reactions.
Obsessive & Narcissistic Behavior
Extreme obsession with you, but not love—control.
Jealous of your friends and people who love you.
Wanted you small, obedient, dependent.
Treated you as a toy/object rather than a person.
Bragged about abusing you.
Punished you emotionally even when you did nothing.
Trauma Bonding / Mind Control
Made you feel like you needed him despite the abuse.
Created intense highs and lows to confuse your feelings.
Used other people (online and offline) to bully you.
Conditioned you to accept his obsession and cruelty.
Disrespect & Betrayal
, never cared about your safety.
Likely would cheat; history shows he has.
called you "goddess" to manipulate your feelings
Used his attention to control you, then pulled it away to hurt you.
Psychological / Emotional Abuse
Made you live in fear and constant anxiety.
Crashed your self-confidence and academic performance.
Emotional exploitation: made you feel guilty, sad, dependent.
Ignored or punished your growth, independence, or opinions.
Creepy & Sadistic Tendencies
Behaved in ways that were intentionally manipulative and sadistic.
Caused you nightmares, trauma, and deep emotional scars.
Took advantage of your empathy and kindness.
Irrelevance of Your Needs
Never cared about your grades or personal growth.
Only valued your attention and presence for himself.
Would not let you achieve your dreams; wanted to break you first.
Last updated on:2026-01-30T20:20:05+05:30
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when you say you relapsed, what pulled you back in that moment? was it loneliness, missing the affection, or that urge to prove you weren’t dramatic like they said?
i had that same “did this really happen?” fog after i finally said it out loud. the trauma bond kept pulling me back even when my body knew it was abuse. the highs messed with my head BAD
i know right? we got this girl 🥹never going back