three days ago i had a panic attack after seeing her in a video a friend of hers posted
we were fully in no contact for 2 months
and it was painful for me to see an update from her(?)
i reached out to her and her friend and got ignored by her and made fun of by her friend and everything started to hurt eversince then
that friend of hers was supposed to be OUR friend
i couldnt eat, i couldnt sleep, every single memory hurt me
i couldnt take friends nor family and everything was too much
until i decided to turn that pain into something beautiful
i wrote a poem, i played my guitar without expecting the best melody, i told myself that i dont need her to love me
i dont need her to be what she wants
and suddenly for a reason i looked at myself in the mirror and gave myself a smile, and for god knows why it just wasnt fake, i was proud of myself
i started to love and accept myself, i felt beautiful and powerful
i dont want to think about her anymore, i dont want to neither hate or want her anymore
im not sure why i wrote this here, i just want people like me to know they dont need anyone to love them to be enough
they dont need someone to watch them be their best
they deserve to be loved, they deserve to move on, they deserve to heal, they deserve to feel better
you matter
Last updated on:2026-02-03T00:39:02+05:30
Comments (5)
you smiled at yourself in the mirror, what part of you finally felt seen? that moment sounds so big.
what you did creating something, feeling yourself, letting yourself be proud is literally the fastest way to reclaim yourself.
i went through months of panic attacks and sleepless nights after my ex ghosted me, and the way you turned it into music and a poem…i get that. that moment in the mirror, that smile…it’s EVERYTHING.
I love this, and am working my way towards this level of self-love and acceptance. Thank you for sharing!
happy for you mate. hope you heal and grow and fall in love with yourself even more .