I love a man that don't even careeeee about me broooo. And we see each other at the gym when he is not avoiding me, and yesterday he made it a point to have another girl sit on his lap when I was walking past. I crashed out like hell yesterday, I was literally at work in court, with red eyessss but today I am reframing the narrative and choosing self.
I love him deeply but this is not going to turn into the "I don't give a damn" Olympics because shem, I give a damn. So, I am just going to move on, extend grace because maybe performance is how you are going to deal with your healing. I can't.
Another day, another opportunity. I just have to push through until I can't feel a thing...I can't feel a thing
I can't feel, can't feel a thing
Can't feel a thing, can't feel, feel, feel, feel her
I can't feel, feel her
Novacane, Novacane, Novacane
I can't feel, feel her
Novacane for the pain, for the pain
I can't, can't feel, feel her, feel her, oh
Novacane, Novacane, cane, cane, cane (anyway, I went on a musical tangent).
I love him to the core of my being though. Shattered as hell. and low-key highkey want him backš
Last updated on:2026-02-05T15:30:38+05:30
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omg je just wants to hurt you, try to move on, I know it's hard but you have to realise nothing good can come from him anymore
exactly šāš¾
Fk that muthrfkr
Real
when he does stuff like that in front of you, does it feel more like heās trying to hurt you, or like heās trying to convince himself heās okay?
Both actually. Depending on the day of my willpower, it can go either way. Some days it feels painful as hell. But some days I am like, "damn you want me so bad that you had to put up a wholeeee performance"
I love this man who gas lights me He cheated on me and I feel horrible I am struggling to move past that incident but he keeps shutting off my feelings.Now he has stopped talking to me.I blew up his phone today but he didn't pick my calls the whole day
I am no expert but create some distance. I know that that's hard and I am not going to give you that rubbish talk about self love, but right now he knows he has the upper hand. The distance will change that, and it will also allow you time to actually think if it's worth it. I wouldn't even judge you if you went back back because the heart is tricky like that. But right now, he feels like he can do whatever he wants because you are always going to chase him, don't give him that power. I know you love him and all you want is to talk to him but hold off a little
@Unicorninja Thank you so much I will keep coming back to this comment.
choosing self even when you still love him is one of the hardest things i ever did. i wasnāt numb for a long time, but sticking to my own values kept me from losing myself completely.
wow, this is so beautiful. I was numb too but I worked through the numbness. It's such a dangerous place to be in because life becomes so monotone. I hope you break out of that because life without feeling is horrible.
I love this comment because I do need to choose myself. And you made me realise it's important for me right now.
I feel you on seeing him at the gym and him having a girl sit on his lap. he doesnāt seem very mindful of you. either way, I give you credit for not crashing out on him on the spot. Iām such a huge mess when things like that happen to me
I feel like he did it intentionally because only when he looked at me walking in his direction, he pulled the girl in. I didn't crash out on him because I don't like him thinking he has that hold on me. Yes, he does but I don't like him knowing that. So, I go to the bathroom and Cryyyyyyyyy! But I don't blame you, it's actually valid that you would crash out on him but the hack when it comes to boys, don't give them that impression. That's how they gravitate towards you!
loving someone who treated my feelings like a performance. the gym sightings, the intentional flexing with someone else. that lap thing wouldāve shattered me too. i gave a damn HARD and it wrecked me
Damn, #relatable. *virtual hug* It wrecked me too, cried so many times at work. These people don't realise the pain they cause in the name of "revenge" or performing. Heartbreak is so painful. It feels like it's just all a game.