I feel like I can study again now while listening to positive self-love songs. But I realized these days that I lost myself while falling for her. I told her that I was okay with her replying very late after days. I told her that she can contact me when she feels like it so that I don't pressure her. I lost my worth.I abandon my feelings and myself and I was always anxious waiting for her replies. Even now, I'm still hoping for her message tonight since tomorrow is my birthday. I told myself I need to love myself. but when I check her social and when she posted that she's not in good mental condition,I immediately wanted to contact her although I already know that she has a boyfriend now.
I thought I'm healing but maybe I need more and more time.
Last updated on:2026-02-10T23:33:03+05:30
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when you imagine her texting you on your birthday, what do you think you’re hoping it gives you right now?
i hear how much you’re trying. studying again, self-love songs, that’s real progress
i did the SAME thing. shrinking myself, saying “it’s okay” when it absolutely wasn’t. waiting for replies like my nervous system depended on it. i lost myself too, hard.