I have unofficialy joined the witness protection program🚫

No Turning Back Now
Phone Number Changed✅
Email Changed✅
I would moved if I could afford it❌
I told him to throw all my stuff away or donate it or sell it and keep the money but he insists on dropping it off in the spring when the roads are better.❌
I blocked his phone number✅
I blocked Facebook ✅
I blocked Spotify account✅
I blocked two email accounts ✅
I blocked his WhatsApp account ✅
I was 9 DAYS in To no contact when he phoned me. I had briefly unblocked his phone number for 2 minutes a day or two before. I thought I had blocked him again. when he called I picked up the phone. I regret picking up the phone. at first I enjoyed chatting with him. he was crying and packing up my things and smelling my clothes and saying how much she loved me. when I saw him doing this I started to cry and I started telling him how much I loved him and how much I missed him how much I wanted to work on things and that I wanted to get back together. once I started to do that he changed. he started to bring up things and as our conversation progressed he started to become mean. I confessed to him that the day before I had joined a dating app. I'm not ready to date but I did need a distraction. I kept focusing on all the ways that he abused me. I know I'm not ready to date but I needed a distraction from the pain. and I know it's not fair to use another person as a distraction, but it really helped. when he phoned I was actually on the dating app. when he phoned I was actually on the dating app. I didn't join the dating app until we were broken up for a month. when he started to call me, disgusting for joining the dating app over and over again. even though he at one point during one of our breakups joined an dating app after we had only been apart for 2 or 3 hours, I was disgusting after waiting a month. this really destroyed me. he started to verbally abuse me the way he had it in our entire relationship. bringing up all our problems and making everything my fault. I tried everything during our two phone calls over 2 days to try to work on things with him but he only had hate for me in his heart. I was glad I took the phone call because it was just another nail in our coffin. after we finished talking, I realized that blocking him wasn't enough because I knew sometimes I would become weak and unblock him.. that I would be weak sometimes and I would check my spam folder to see if his email got through even though he was blocked. I needed to change my phone number and my email address. I spent hours on the phone trying to change my phone number because my cell phone company got bought by another phone company. I also spent a long time calling different businesses changing my phone number and email.. it's worth it though. I know now I'm free. now I know I'm really committed to no contact. we are really broken up. does it mean I don't wake up sad and depressed in the morning. no. I still feel heartbroken. but I feel I've taken a step in the right direction. my biggest goal today is to brush my teeth and shower. hopefully do a mini workout. I keep signing up for these codependent anonymous meetings and I haven't shown up. I'm really hoping today is the day. thank you for taking the time to read my message. I'm sorry it's so long. I'm just curious if there's anybody else out there who has had to change through email address or phone number.. I would love to hear a little bit of your story so I just don't feel so alone. it's really hard to accept that he will never change.

Last updated on:2026-02-13T05:05:24+05:30