it's been 25 days since I cut him off,sometimes I miss him,other times I remember how terrible he treated me.But when I'm alone at night with no one to talk to I remember the days we spent together sometimes sleeping together skin to skin other times we were talking about our personal lives.I really want to reach out to him but then I remember the day I cut him off I cried so much because he didn't even try to sabotage me,he just accepted it because he told me that he knows I'll reach out sometime.Ive known him for 3 years but in one month we could've hit one year being together (situationship) I don't really know what to feel I'm so confused not to mention that he was my first everything so that makes it even worse.I just know that I will never forget him and deep inside I'll always love him even if he treated me terrible and made me cry,i just wish he could change because I'll never love anyone the way I loved him.The only thing that makes me feel close to him now is the music I used to listen while I was talking to him,it feels so nostalgic because I couldn't realise at that time that time flies so fast and now he is just a memory
Last updated on:2026-02-17T18:20:06+05:30
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when he said he knows you’ll reach out someday… did that make you feel wanted, or did it feel like he knew he still had control over you?
25 days is still so fresh.
nights were the worst for me too. i’d miss his skin, his voice, the way we’d just lay there talking about nothing and everything and then i’d remember how small he made me feel. that back and forth is exhausting. especially when he was my first everything. i swore i’d never love like that again.
I relate!! you deserve better
distraction is the best. stuff you really enjoyed doing back then : fresh them up (be it crochet, entomology of sex, who cares?)
I'm so sorry 😔
but you really do deserve and not to be treated badly
i know you miss him but try to distract yourself and try not to reach out
go out have fun
take care of yourself and invest in things that make you happier
your loved🤍