It's already been 6 months of a breakup and 4 month since he's ignoring me. Every day is like a hellish torture. I can't fall asleep, I'm crying all the time and the thoughts are getting louder. Even when I have a free day from uni I can't get myself outside. I don't see the sense of life without him. With each day I am becoming more and more convinced thaht I'm going to be alone after this relationship. Since I had intimacy before wedding I can't have a family and children and... That were everything I wanted in this life. And now it's gone. And I can't do anything about that. Guess the monastery idea after uni won't be so bad after all
Last updated on:2026-02-24T18:39:01+05:30
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is the fear about never having a family coming from him leaving, or from what you believe about intimacy before marriage? sometimes those are two different wounds tangled together
Both, really. Due to my religion I can't be in relationship with another men after intimacy and I believed that we're going to be together even after that, if I'll do what he wants
when the thoughts get louder like that, i try to focus on just surviving the day. not my whole future. just today. six months feels long but heartbreak time is weird. it doesn’t follow logic. you’re not broken for still hurting
I can't even last a week not contacting her so I think you're doing good. It's ok if you slip up this time. I think you'll do better next time.
i’ve been 95 days and i thought that i was over him, but when i run into him on valentive days, i just wanted to come up to him and explain things, tell him how much i love him, even though deep down i knew that it’s not good to dot that, that i should have self respect when he said that he don’t and won’t love me anymore. like he said get the hell out of his life, i still love him, love don’t need someone who has soft heart 💔
being 6 months out and still feeling like i was being tortured every single day. couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat, couldn’t imagine a future without him. i genuinely thought my life was over and that no one would ever want me again. especially because i tied my worth to that relationship and what we’d done together. it felt FINAL. like i ruined my only shot at love and a family. i didn’t. and you haven’t either the pain was loud for me too. it doesn’t mean it’s the end of your story.
you are strong that you reached 110 days keep doing
your value does not depends on having intimacy with some guy. That's the way the system controls you. Your value depends on how much love you can experience when you are in front of the mirror. You will have family and children, it's just that it won't be with him. Try to do some exercise, and find new ways to know more women, you will need real friends 🩷