today is the third day of being blocked by my ex.
i had a dream about him and i.
we were beside each other in physical form, so intimate, like we were lovers again. the moment i woke up from that dream, my mind went blank. i didn't know how to feel. then a swarm of nostalgia washed over me. i wish those bad things never happened. if it didn't happen, would him and i separate regardless? i don't know, i really don't. i don't think i'll ever know.
still quite disappointed by how quickly and harshly he left me.
was the love real? not sure.
but, deep down, i never wanted to wake up from that dream.
Last updated on:2026-03-01T17:56:36+05:30
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hey when you think about him blocking you, is it the silence that hurts most? or the way he did it so suddenly?
both. i couldn't take his sudden leave well, and the loneliness and emptiness afterward kill me. i'm still adjusting to a life without him, but it's getting better each day.
you know for me, the dreams were my brain trying to process what my heart couldn’t yet. they slowed down eventually. the disappointment about how fast he left though… that part took longer.
same i had those dreams too right after he blocked me. waking up felt like being dumped all over again. for a few seconds it felt REAL, like we were okay. then boom. reality. that nostalgia wave is brutat i used to question if any of it was real too.
Our brains does enjoy torturing us with the highlight reels. But you need to take time to remind yourself that it wasn't your fault. There were issues on both ends and sometimes one person is willing to sacrifice, do the work and compromise and the other isn't emotionally mature enough to be accountable. So what they do is saddle you with all the blame and run for the hills. His behaviour doesn't say anything about you as a person but it speaks volumes of him. If someone truly cares they wouldn't saddle you with a world of sorrow and leave you to deal with it by yourself. You deserve to be happy and you need time and some grace with yourself to find that by yourself. A person can give us happy moments, sad ones and a slew of in-between ones but they can't be the source of any of those. Only you can find that for yourself. So feel your feelings, don't feel ashamed or sad about having them. You're a person who cared and remind yourself of that. But it's also time to take the situation by the horns and focus on your own peace of mind and on healing your heart. So start finding things to keep you occupied. Cut down on reminders of him. If you've got things that remind you of him. Pack them away until you feel comfortable of letting go. Breakups are a journey and in a way a process, can't rush it but you can take your time with it.
thank you for your advice, I really appreciate it. i'm really trying to not overthink but it's so painful. one moment i'm fine, then the next i get a mental breakdown. what hurts me the most is that he lost feelings for me in barely 3 weeks, and now he has an unclear relation with someone else that i know of. so harsh of him..
but although i'm hurt by him, i know i have responsibilities for what happened as well. and it makes me feel guilty. it makes me think "what if i put more thought into my decision?" "what could i have done to possibly receive a different outcome?" these thoughts drive me insane. and the fact that i can't fix things properly hurts me even more.
@mzsyu unfortunately those thoughts drive all of us insane. It's not weak to have them nor anything you should be ashamed of. But instead of kicking yourself for what you did wrong, consider this, it is only in getting something wrong you actually have an opportunity to learn how to do it right. Don't focus on what was. Focus on what is and what you can do about it. I don't mean run back to your ex by this. What I mean is if communication broke down because of certain things or behaviours consider how you can do it better in your day to day life. Every single thing you can get right or wrong in a romantic relationship is something you can get wrong in any other relationship so the things you consider issues think on how to improve those fronts. Relationships are things that come with a steep learning curve and it's okay to get it wrong sometimes. It's okay to feel sad or even be scared of dating as a whole now. But the key take away and the key focus shouldn't be about beating yourself up or leaning into negativity. It should be on focusing on yourself. Deciding what your boundaries are and where you draw the line on certain things as well as just reminding yourself you are someone worthy of love and affection and that you as a person just like any other are special and not because what you can do but for simply being yourself. So make time to take time for your healing and step a bit back from things that hurt you.
to easy for him to said "he lost feelings for you" and you should also do the same by dumping him and focusing on your life
hope u will find someone better 🤍
its not real love, real love will always loving to each other cant be your ex, but your future, so he is not for you, lets say "he is not your soulmate" one day you find someone better than him
you're right. it most likely wasn't real love. he said he lost feelings for me, and it was barely 3 weeks. and yeah, i don't believe in "soulmate" type of thing. thank you for your thoughts and wishes. :)