I was wondering why it hurts so much today
I was wondering why it hurts so much today. I just realized that it's been exactly one month since he left—since we said goodbye. I've been trying to move on from him quickly, but it's been so hard
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Treating myself coz I'm not feeling the best today
Treating myself coz I'm not feeling the best today.
Some days I feel okay
Some days I feel okay, free, and ready to move forward. Today's not like that, I'm feeling down again. I need to stop myself from revisiting the wound. I don't want to judge all guys, but I've been se
I was wearing this to an appointment
I was wearing this to an appointment, and a lady asked me if it was a rosary and I said yes. She was tearful and thanked me for being there, she said that she was asking for a sign, and she was glad t
It's a different kind of pain when you have to leave the one that you know you can't unlove
It's a different kind of pain when you have to leave the one that you know you can't unlove. Not because you're still hoping to get back with them, but because you respect the person despite the endin
I saw this before our breakup
I saw this before our breakup, and that just sealed the deal for me. I realized that I'd rather start over again than to keep begging him to love me the way that I deserve.
Being able to eat out so I can feel better
Being able to eat out so I can feel better. It was a week of convincing everyone including myself that I'm fine. Maybe I am, but healing is not linear and my mood is on the low again.
Grieving the naive lover girl that I once was
Grieving the naive lover girl that I once was, and taking all the ways to process letting go of "us". I am building the pieces of me by smashing things into pieces.
I smashed the picture frame that held our memories
I smashed the picture frame that held our memories, letting my pain and anger pour out with every swing. Destroying those things felt like releasing the hurt I carried from how we ended—not out of a
Staying over with a friend because they know that I don't want to be alone right now
Staying over with a friend because they know that I don't want to be alone right now.
I am still mad, but not at him
I am still mad, but not at him, not at me. I just hate that it had to end. It feels like watching your favorite series, and then the characters don't end up together. It's frustrating.
What inspires me? ME
What inspires me? ME. I've been through worse, and I bounced back from it. I believe that I can do that with this heartbreak. I will get better no matter how slow the process would be. I will continue
I'm overthinking again
I'm overthinking again. To date again or to stay single? I don't want to rush, but I don't want to close my doors, and let time pass me by. I want to date to marry, but I'm afraid that that mindset wi
Someone tried to hit on me in a store
Someone tried to hit on me in a store. He seemed nice, but too eager in my opinion. But still, I felt pretty because of the attention, so I went with it for a bit. It felt like a long time since I fli
I think I've learned to cry without tears
I think I've learned to cry without tears, because why does my heart feels like it was being ripped apart while I sit here like I'm okay?
I think I can tell this story here without feeling sick
I think I can tell this story here without feeling sick, orlike the ugliest person on earth. This conversation is still stuck in my head. Him: I don't think I want to have a traditional family. Me:
I woke up and got hit with the wave of regret
I woke up and got hit with the wave of regret, anger, and longing. It wasn't a nice feeling to wake up to. I still had to put on my game face and show up to work. I have to constantly remind myself th
It's weird how our breakup made me feel motivated to work on myself
It's weird how our breakup made me feel motivated to work on myself, picking up more hours at work, studying, working out...and then crashing the moment I hit the bed. The constant what ifs, questioni
One day I won't be this mad
One day I won't be this mad. One day I won't care why it was so easy for you to let me go, to give up on us. I wouldn't wonder why you can't take me with you on the path that you're taking. One day, i
Do you keep the gifts (some of them are really pricey)?
Do you keep the gifts (some of them are really pricey)? Or should I let them go? I'm just thinking that they were given during the happy time. Also I already lost him, might as well keep the useful t
Comfortable dining by myself
Comfortable dining by myself. I know one day I would want to share my days with someone, someone who deserves all the love that I can give and that could give it back. I don't want to be calloused and
Would you be friends with your ex if you broke up on good terms?
Would you be friends with your ex if you broke up on good terms? How will you know that you're ready for it?
Still taking care of people despite this emptiness within me
Still taking care of people despite this emptiness within me. Like TSwift said, "You know you're good when you can do it with a broken heart."
We ended our relationship after three years of trying to work through long distance
We ended our relationship after three years of trying to work through long distance, stressful jobs, school, and family baggages/dramas. He's my first love, and it feels like a part of me died when I