i really really can't stand it and it's so lonely i miss him so bad and i know that he isn't missing me back i know that he's out with his friends and I'm alone even in missing him i tried leaving him motabl times and gave it up i literally even smile when we're fighting because it feels like just mabye maybe he might actually care he was texting his "sister" for a month and didn't tell me he isn't mine he's hers and he just stayed with me because she has a boyfriend and because he wants to get out of India and think I'll get him out he generally doesn't love me he says he does but then why would you lie and go back to someone i begged you to leave?..why would you not just love me and why wouldn't i just stop loving you already? how many times do do i have to repeat everything till it's fanily over? will this time be any different? how can i go back to him after he had been talking to her for a month how?..what will i even say to him? beg him again to love me? hearing fakes I'll and more proteneding that'll give me fake high?
Last updated on:2026-04-01T00:04:49+05:30
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i know how you feel. i keep missing the memories and the future we could have had. i dont know who is religious and who is not. but i prayed today asking God to help me choose to not to lose myself in the past memories and past mistakes or future anxieties, but to grow into a new person who is constant and who does this which she loves.
do you think you’re missing him, or missing the version of him you kept hoping he’d become
i stayed with someone who kept choosing someone else over me and i still clung on, thinking if i just loved harder he’d finally see me. it broke me slowly