Facing the pain of a breakup: i can’t believe it’s over

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He wants to go separate ways after three years and living together. since Monday I’ve stayed with my oldest daughter at her house. Today after work I went to the house to get a few things and I broke down. panic attack after panic attack in front of him. I felt so embarrassed. I can tell he’s sad but he holds his emotions in better. I got a few things but told him it was too hard to come to the house and do this. he agreed to pack my stuff for me and my kids and he’ll send pics of things if I want them or not, etc and when I come to get my stuff he’ll make sure he’s gone. He did let me hug him a couple times. I had a hard time walking away. I just stood there rubbing his skin and face to try to idk what. I just couldn’t let him go. Driving way was so hard.

Last updated on:2026-04-05T05:20:07+05:30

Comments (6)

JoyfulWay710
JoyfulWay710 7 hrs ago

I’m going through this now the pain is intense and the messiness of removing all your things is so awful but we just need to survive for 15 minutes and then 15 minutes after that. we can do this we’re all going through this pain and someday it’ll stop and life will move on

Ufynluck
Ufynluck 2 days ago

are you able to stay somewhere you feel even a tiny bit safe tonight, or does everything still feel like it’s spinning right now?

paininmysoul
paininmysoul 25 mins ago

I am staying with my daughter and son in law for now. I had to go back there a few days after I left to grab a few things but I had three separate anxiety attacks and felt like I was gonna pass out. he was kind and helpful. before I had the strength to drive away we did hug and kiss each other on the cheek. I know he’s hurting too he just shows it differently

mindsoul
mindsoul 3 days ago

i know how embarrassing it feels after, but honestly that was just love pouring out of you.

starynight
starynight 3 days ago

’ve been there standing in front of someone i love and just breaking down while they stay composed. i remember touching his face too like maybe if i stayed a second longer it wouldn’t be real… walking away felt impossible

paininmysoul
paininmysoul 24 mins ago

yes I touched his face and stared at him just trying to hold onto a long as I could