Six months no contact: confusion after seeing my ex again

i’ve been no contact with my ex for 6 months after a 9 month relationship. i know that might not seem long to some people but it really shook me. it was my first real relationship my first time saying “i love you” and we went through everything together the good the fights the fixing things all of it.
i always saw love as something you choose and work on not just a feeling but she didn’t see it the same way. when i had to move about an hour and a half away she decided she couldn’t do it anymore. i never wanted long distance before but for her i was ready to try anything so i gave it everything i had time money effort just to show her how much she meant to me.
but it still ended. the very first day i left she broke up with me over the phone saying she didn’t love me anymore didn’t see a future and wasn’t happy. i tried to explain how much i was putting in sending her food flowers letters but it didn’t matter. i learned the hard way that it only works if both people want it.
it hurt a lot and even now it still does sometimes. i stayed no contact for 6 months until this week when she reached out before an event we both attended. she apologized for how things ended and said she hoped i was doing well. for context she started seeing someone else a month after we broke up and that ended about a month ago.
when i saw her we barely talked but she kept looking over and waited to say goodbye. it left me confused. part of me still loves her and hopes she’ll reach out again but another part of me knows that if she’s happy that should be enough.
i feel like i’ve been stuck between holding on and letting go for months now. this small interaction gave me some closure but it also brought back feelings. i don’t think i’ll ever fully stop loving her but i’ve been trying to do it from a distance. i just can’t shake the feeling that maybe i’m making a mistake by not trying again.

Last updated on:2026-04-06T20:07:03+05:30