I messed things up with my fave person ever. Lowkey pushed him away cause I thought he didn't care but it took me ages to realize I was just tripping and wasn't ready for a real adult thing.
I've hit him up a few times but he keeps saying he needs space. It's hard to hear the right person will want you and your love wouldn't break up with you cause I broke up with him cause I was immature and my emotions were a mess.
Been in so much therapy and learned a ton about myself and relationships so my next one will be healthier for sure. But this is the first time I've kinda accepted I might have permanent damage from this. It's been a year and I'm still hoping he'll wanna talk eventually but I might be waiting forever. I'm dying to tell him I've changed and say sorry. Feels like I'll never fully give my heart to someone new cause I'll always be holding out for a second chance with him and might just mess with other emotionally unavailable people so I don't hurt anyone again.
His life's going good without me and I don't wanna mess with his peace or his new relationship. Everyone's got regrets that stick with them forever I guess that's just growing up. I keep thinking about that part in that book about his "restless passion for the woman whose peace he destroyed.
Last updated on:2025-05-09T09:48:24+05:30
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Hey friend, Really empathize with you a lot. Please don't be regretful.You did what you knew as the best, and that's truth.Quite surely you didn't want to cause any harm to him also. Also you could try and stop the waiting.waiting is something that keeps us forever stuck in future and disconnects us from the present which is actual reality that's going on.Be there in your life and let go off the waiting mind
Regret keeps us stuck but reflection moves us forward. You’ve done the work now it’s time to trust that something greater is waiting.
It's hard to accept that sometimes we don’t get a second chance no matter how much we change. But the fact that you’ve become a better version of yourself means that love will look different next time.
Holding on to hope is human but sometimes healing means letting go even when it feels impossible.
Regret is a heavy thing to carry but growth is its silver lining. You’ve changed you’ve learned and even if the door doesn’t open again you’re walking forward stronger.
Like, is there a reason you can't just hit him up He should at least know what's good He might even be wanting you back lowkey
I hit him up like three times last time was maybe seven or eight months ago and each time he was just like need space' last time he even said pls respect my space ask he's got a new girl so I guess if anything's gonna happen it'll be when he's ready to talk but for real I gotta let this go my heart's just not accepting it's over and it's the worst I haven't even been able to date anyone else
like this loss is just gonna be a thing forever now. The thought that life will always have this missing piece lowkey freaks me out. Feels like life's kinda over? I was with her for months and then just yeeted our whole relationship. Still don't even know why. We had a rough time. No advice for you OP but just know you're def not the only one feeling it.
Being around people lowkey gives you strength I think. Makes you feel like you're part of the human fam