a year and a half ago I fell for this dude hard it's the longest I've ever loved someone met him when he hired me he was kinda my boss

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a year and a half ago I fell for this dude hard it's the longest I've ever loved someone met him when he hired me he was kinda my boss. From day one he was so nice saw me instantly knew I worked hard and had potential helped me find myself and my passion for work always tried to make me laugh. After a bit I saw all sides of him saw how people treated him bad and knew he deserved better so I hyped him up told him he was lovely knew he liked the attention celebrated his bday made vday and xmas special thought we were on the same page. When we were together it really felt like he felt the same like we were the same had differences but were so alike felt safe and trusted him. It was hard at first but I tried to work through my stuff and communicate told him how I felt so many times should've seen it then he never said how he felt always said I was sweet and he was proud appreciated me held onto that for months. He took me to my first waterfall planned other firsts. Things seemed to be going somewhere after vday spent it together he told me personal stuff never thought he'd share. Few days later the job fired him haven't seen him since. Tried to keep in touch messaged him here and there was anxious thought if I didn't reach out I'd lose him guess I got too anxious asked how he felt said I'm a good friend. Was devastated all this time all my love just a friend? But it never felt like just friends he was touchy the way he looked at me stood close it was more than friendly. Don't know what changed for him but I felt the same since day one. Know there's no one else like him he might be avoidant but he's such a beautiful person lived so much grown into a hardworking guy with a great personality charms everyone funny talented so smart and sweet gentle. Just don't know how to forget him don't know if I should block him or keep trying just want things to work out but if he really just sees me as a friend probably no chance. Part of me hoped being friends would lead to more but it's been almost two years. Any advice?

Last updated on:2025-05-14T12:55:55+05:30

Comments (9)

Smailyshin
Smailyshin 10 mths ago

If he was truly meant to be yours he wouldn’t leave you in doubt. You deserve clarity certainty and love that’s fully given not halfway felt.

jignia03
jignia03 10 mths ago

The way he looked at you touched you shared things with you it felt like more and that makes it confusing. But actions and feelings don’t always align.

selfiqueen
selfiqueen 10 mths ago

Blocking him might help you move forward but only if it feels right for you not out of anger but for your own healing.

cryinnija
cryinnija 10 mths ago

Holding onto hope is painful but don’t lose yourself waiting for someone who isn’t choosing you in the way you deserve.

Jenlico
Jenlico 10 mths ago

You wanted to be more than friends and he didn’t. That doesn’t erase the connection but it does mean you need to prioritize yourself now.

evenodd
evenodd 10 mths ago

Sometimes people hold back their true emotions out of fear or uncertainty. But if he only sees you as a friend, forcing something won’t bring peace.

Capsico
Capsico 10 mths ago

It’s tough when love feels real on your side but unclear on theirs. You gave your heart your time your energy no shame in feeling hurt.

sadphoenix
sadphoenix 10 mths ago

if you confessed your feelings and he didn't reciprocate... I think it's time to move on. you deserve someone who will give you your energy back

hanna875
hanna875 10 mths ago

it looks hard for me to move on..