Almost a year after the breakup: still healing
its been almost a year since me and my ex broke up. I blocked or deleted him on most platforms months ago. ive been saving screenshots of how he used to abuse me... im considering deleting them.
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Feeling Like I'm Holding On to a Dying Relationship
I knew she was different since our first break up: less affectionate, less interested in me but I asked her if things were okay and she said they were so I tried to trust her. yesterday she said she's
Am i just delaying the inevitable after getting back with my ex?
i dont even know if this post belongs here, but I got back together with my gf. kinda feeling like im delaying the inevitable, but im selfish and want to be loved. I feel like im mourning it's future
my ex broke up with me (technically) yesterday
I honestly feel so discarded. we both made mistakes and instead of trying to repair things with me she went straight for accusing me of the worst and hurting her (even though she did things thats hurt
is it weird to keep the messages?
Is it weird or messed up to keep messages from a toxic relationship not because you want them back, but to have as evidence they hurt you? Like yes, this message is proof im not crazy, and they were a
I think ive given up on being happy
I think ive given up on being happy. all I do is survive now and.. whats the point in that?
one time my ex told me he needed space for 3 days and i wasnt allowed to talk to him but he'd send me lengthy texts on how his day was going
one time my ex told me he needed space for 3 days and i wasnt allowed to talk to him but he'd send me lengthy texts on how his day was going. was this a control tactic or am I overthinking?
Anger. to my ex: fuck you for mirroring me
Anger. to my ex: fuck you for mirroring me, people pleasing me, resenting me when you didn't speak up about your needs, then withdrawing. fuck you for being a lesson. and to the one guy who acted like
a guy reached out to me saying he was interested in dating me
a guy reached out to me saying he was interested in dating me. after 3 months of getting out of my last relationship i thought, why not? I told him we'd have to get to know each other a little better
I dont even want him back
I dont even want him back, if he ever messaged me I'd ignore it, but i think I don't fully block him because I'm scared discord will delete all our messages, and I want evidence of all the shit ways h
I can feel myself using this app less and less but i can't tell if it's because I'm actually healing
I can feel myself using this app less and less but i can't tell if it's because I'm actually healing, or if I feel like a broken record in my pain and I feel shame for posting about it
been working on my physical health and learning how to crochet
been working on my physical health and learning how to crochet. focusing on myself and taking care of myself is hard but I've gone too long not doing it
I keep trying to make friends but it hasn't been working out
I keep trying to make friends but it hasn't been working out. for example, I met a guy the day before yesterday, and yesterday we talked throughout the day. today he messages me saying he can't be my
I wish I could sleep off depression as if it were
I wish I could sleep off depression as if it were the common cold
one thing that always irked me when i was with my ex was when I'd try to introduce him to my friends or my family member and he'd say
one thing that always irked me when i was with my ex was when I'd try to introduce him to my friends or my family member and he'd say, "I'll be nice, but I won't be their friend." or when I'd tell him
i don't know why I was worried about him initiating contact after our "one month no contact then we try to be friends rule
i don't know why I was worried about him initiating contact after our "one month no contact then we try to be friends rule," he didnt; maybe he's waiting for *me* to initiate contact? I dont think i w
everything was wonderful when it was just surface level but as soon as it got too deep
everything was wonderful when it was just surface level but as soon as it got too deep, he bounced đ. seems like it's been like that for most of my past relationships and now I'll always be scared
me and my ex used to use telegram (its an app) to talk
me and my ex used to use telegram (its an app) to talk, but also so did me and my bff. after my break up I asked my bff if we can use a different app so i wouldn't feel compelled to obsess over old me
yesterday my ex looked at my tik tok page
yesterday my ex looked at my tik tok page, i don't know why he'd do that because I haven't posted anything since February, unless he saw that I accidentally looked at his page or he saw that I blocked
tw for pedo/grooming found out a new guy i was talking to was giving pedo vibes
tw for pedo/grooming found out a new guy i was talking to was giving pedo vibes. she was 16 when she met him and he was 26 and he waited until she was 18 to officially start datin
I shouldn't have agreed to contact him after a month
I shouldn't have agreed to contact him after a month, I know I can still change my mind and block him so he can't contact me. but it's only been 13 days since we broke up and I have this sort of antic
it's been a week since break up
it's been a week since break up... feels like an eternity. I've been trying to make new friends but the friendships feel very surface level. been also job hunting, and looking up local events. I've be
existential crisis, questioning who I am
existential crisis, questioning who I am, and feelings of low self worth... im not taking this well. kinda wish I was a real Phoenix, so i can burn, rise from the ashes and become something way cooler
I've gotten used to checking his messages every single day multiple times a day
I've gotten used to checking his messages every single day multiple times a day. it's day 2 of no contact. I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't get the urge to check, but all the moments in
we broke up today. yesterday I told him in a month we can attempt friendship but
we broke up today. yesterday I told him in a month we can attempt friendship but... do I even want that? I hate how I tie my self worth to how others treat me. ill also have to rediscover who i am wit