well its been 29 days of no contact. after a rough 8 years. I say rough bc he was a serial cheater and he always ends up going back and forth between me and his ex. I told him if it ever happens again that was the end of us. and today started out amazing like I was finally going to not feel anything about a heartbreak I haven't checked on his location in days. I really thought things were on the up and up. then I heard a song through my ear buds and all of the emotions came flooding in. I will not ever contact him again and I do know that our love history has come to the end. I just wish I could have walked away the first time I had the chance. but I listen to him not my logic and hear is where we end up 8 long years later. he m9ved to another city moved in with his ex quit his job here and found a new one 5 minutes from her house. this was not a accident or coincidence. this was thought out well over months ago im sure. anyways just wanted to let this off my chest. thanks for reading.
Last updated on:2026-07-24T20:33:11+05:30
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beating myself up for not leaving sooner because i already paid enough for those extra years. i just kept telling myself that staying no contact was one promise i could finally keep to me.
when you said today started out amazing, what was different about this morning? i'd hold onto THAT because it sounds like a part of you is finally starting to believe there's life after him.
29 days is HUGE, especially after 8 years of being pulled back and forth. i stayed with someone who kept choosing other people over me too, and i still remember how one random song could undo an entire good day.
it does get better i just got to let time have time basically
proud of you for taking the steps to heal. I kept going back to someone who kept breaking up with me, thankfully he never cheated, but i can understand that self doubt about taking someone back several times. But loving someone means believing them, so I try not to be hard on myself.
stay strong. 🥰
I have been through so much with him you would think I be relieved instead of hurt.
@cerealkilla80 I get it... your brain and your heart and your body all seem to deal with things separately and dont have the same goal. lol.
I know i deserve better but why do I feel like I dont
I know that feeling, and the trauma bond is so hard to break, especially after 8 years. But you do deserve so much better. I'm proud of you for stepping out of that cycle of abuse, and into your journey of self-love and healing. 💌
29 days is amazing after being in a toxic cycle like that for 8 years.🌟 Good for you, choosing you. ♥️♥️
thank u
you got this girl I believe in you!!! I’m so sorry that happened you deserve so much better ❤️🩹