Why i broke no contact with my ex
Its been 6 weeks since we have seen each other in person, but I have constantly broken NC. Yesterday we drove past each other and stopped. We went and got a drink. It was kind of weird but also nice.
Its been 6 weeks since we have seen each other in person, but I have constantly broken NC. Yesterday we drove past each other and stopped. We went and got a drink. It was kind of weird but also nice.
I have seen lots of people talking about dreams... which I hadn't encountered, and I am a very vivid dreamer. Well last night they hit me. All night I dreamt about him breaking up with me. each time
im here again... resetting the clock. Surely it should get easier each time. Surely I should get stronger. I have to let go. I have anxious attachment, so its a battle with myself, not even with h
My brain keeps flipping between wanting him back so desperately. To knowing if he did come back, It could never be the same after going through this cycle so many times. By taking him back. I would
Today was so hard compared to yesterday. I felt really heavy and sad all day..and while reaching out crossed my mind, there wasn't an excruciating pull that i was fighting against. So i guess that's a
I had a realisation today that might be helpful to you all, because it is positive and makes me feel better. While our relationship may have ended, I have so much gratitude in the fact that forever, I
Well this morning was probably the roughest moment ive had so far. I have been forcing myself to work and im realising that the best way to get through this is just not to think about him. Because the
well the past 24 hours have sucked, because its the first time in my 16 relapses that I have had to really accept that this is actually over. He kept pushing on our last call that I need to start dati
well i messed up and I called him and to be honest I didn't really want to accept it was over. I know breaking no contact wasn't the best move but in all honesty I was going through it believing we wo
Good Morning. I almost broke NC this morning. My heart is so heavy. The more time that passes, I start to miss him more. We have gone through this cycle many times before and we always get back tog
Well shortly I will be hitting day 11. What I am struggling with is the constant looping in my head of emotions. one moment I feel strong and ready for the future, then the urge to reach out rises up
So im 2 hours off of day 10. I am not going to lie. The past 24 hours has been by far the hardest. The urge to reach out has been so strong, it is taking all if my strength not to. I know its my nerv
This morning I woke up angry. angry at him, angry at myself for giving him so many chances. Everytime he came back he would do some work on himself and tell me I was worth fighting for. Things would
im really struggling. I have been feeling very down on myself and having very strong urges to reach out. I think im going to find a professional to talk to. This break up has really knocked my self es
wow I never thought I would make it here. Thanks for letting me do these daily check ins. without them I don't think I would have made it. The sadness has definitely set in and the realisation that t
While I am proud I have made it to day 6, my heart feels really heavy today. I am on the way to the airport to go back home from the work conference. its going to be harder to be strong. I travel arou
Wow I never thought I would get here. Last night was great with my work team. I even had small chunks of time I didn't have him in my mind. It was nice. i have woken up today feeling so anxious thoug
I did it! I made it past the dreaded 3 day breaking NC loop. It wasn't easy. But I just kept telling myself. Why am I fighting for someone who isn't fighting for me? This morning I have started having
Yesterday I made the decision to have a day for me. I got my nails done, got myself a cute new top and sang out loud to my favorite songs in the car. While I still felt sad all day, I had moments of t
ok so in 2 hours it will be day 2. But I have to be honest, we did talk yesterday. He rang me and I answered. I'm going to keep it as day 2 however because, I honestly need to feel like I made some pr
its been almost 4 weeks now since I was blindsided and broken up with, and my ex told me yesterday he is on the dating apps and ready to meet other people. I haven't been able to maintain any longer
I downloaded a dating app this morning. I know it was meant to be a distraction. It made me feel awful. When the one I love is you. I deleted it 2 minutes later. I guess its better to heal. The thou
My ex , and I broke up about three weeks ago. this is the fourth time we've broken up in fourteen months as he is an avoidant , and pushes people away when he has stresses in his life. he broke no con
I know he uses AI to run his messages through to me. which is fine. he isn't great with words. I've been using it too, to chat to someone about the break up I guess. What I can't help but notice is
I try not to get bogged down with all the online stuff. I also swear AI just wants everyone to break up. Its not helpful or useful. I did just see a reel however that has stuck with me. The man was
I keep trying, but it is so difficult. I keep breaking no contact every couple of days. The problem is, he answers and still says nice things. so whenever I feel bad, it's like a drug. He is an avo
I was just listening to a great podcast with a guy who had lost all his limbs, he was talking about reframing your mindset when shit things happen. essentially this breakup could be the best thing th
it's been 3 days NC and a week since our split. we always spent the together so while I have been busy with work this week , I am struggling with the weekend and my strength at not reaching out. I've