Well shortly I will be hitting day 11. What I am struggling with is the constant looping in my head of emotions. one moment I feel strong and ready for the future, then the urge to reach out rises up in my stomach like vomit, then I feel sad, then angry, and then I just miss him desperately. I know each of these urges will pass. I am proud of myself for not giving in to the urge to reach out. Its been a constant battle, but as each day passes I feel a little bit stronger. I keep telling myself that I highly doubt he is sitting around feeling shit and it gives me more drive to move on and stop holding on to something that is finished. Hope keeps us stuck.
I am thinking about resetting up my fish tank and getting a fish today. 🤷♀️
take care everyone 🥰
Last updated on:2026-07-20T05:19:38+05:30
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i love that you're thinking about the fish tank. when my mind wouldn't stop looping, having one small thing to care for gave me somewhere else to put all that energy.
I can only try. 🤷♀️
you are very strong. If I reach where you are today, I will consider this a huge improvement and huge amount of work. You are a very strong woman! be proud of yourself!
I really appreciate your kind words 🫶
day 11 was one of the hardest parts for me too. i'd feel okay for an hour, then suddenly i'd miss him so much i had to sit on my hands.
Yeah the lonliness has really set in these past few days
Keep going. The emotions do die down. I am a month of NC and about 7 weeks in total of dealing with the heartbreak. My mind is still preoccupied with my ex but the cycles between emotions are less intense. I keep busy, allow myself to feel the feelings without trying to find a solution to them, and give myself 20-30 minutes a day to cry if I need to, then I get up and do something else. You’re doing really well and I think getting your fish tank set up will be an excellent project for you!
Thankyou. The past few days have definitely been the hardest. I didn't get my tank set up but I will do it this week.
i smiled when i got to the fish tank part 🐠. is that something you used to enjoy before him, or does it feel like a little fresh start that's just for you
that sounds like a beautiful thing to do im so proud of how far you have come 11 days is no small obstacle to overcome 💖
Thankyou. its been hard work.