Yesterday I made the decision to have a day for me. I got my nails done, got myself a cute new top and sang out loud to my favorite songs in the car. While I still felt sad all day, I had moments of that heavy feeling lifting. Unfortunately my night out with my girlfriends didn't go too great and for the first time in our over 20 year friendship I had a fight with my best friend and hurt her feelings. It has put me on a downward spiral and analysing the role I played in my relationship breakdown as well. When I get stressed and overwhelmed, I can be quite abrupt and snappy. I dont like that aspect of myself.
There are many things I wish I had handled differently in my relationship and now i have lost the man I love and it hurts bad.
I am at the airport on my way to work conference. Day 3 is always the hardest...
I dont want to let myself or you guys down. So despite how sad I feel... im going to stay strong. 🫶
Last updated on:2026-07-12T03:08:40+05:30
Comments (6)
after my breakup i started picking apart EVERY conversation i'd ever had, then one bad day with a friend made me believe i was the problem in every relationship. that spiral is so real.
Yeah it really does. There are definitely some things I can improve, but I dont think im the entire problem. ..Well I hope not. 😬
i'm really glad you still gave yourself that day. when i got snappy from stress, i tried not to judge myself by my worst moments, i paid attention to what i did next instead. that's what slowly changed things for me.
I really love that outlook. 🤩
i'm rooting for you. ❤️ did your best friend know how overwhelmed you've been lately, or did the argument catch her completely by surprise?
I mean she knows what's been going on, but we hadn't spoken during the week. Its just left me feeling more alone than ever.