Good Morning.
I almost broke NC this morning. My heart is so heavy. The more time that passes, I start to miss him more.
We have gone through this cycle many times before and we always get back together. Its so easy to want to just do that again, but then I know going back means also feeling this way again in the future because this is the cycle.
I am struggling today.
Last updated on:2026-07-21T04:04:08+05:30
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when i wanted to text him, i told myself to wait until tomorrow instead of acting on the feeling right away. most days the urge eased up enough for me to keep my streak going.
what usually happens right before you two get back together, does he reach out first or do you?
both of us have
i used to break no contact every time the silence got too loud, then we'd end up right back in the same place a few weeks later. that cycle wore me down more than the breakup ever did.
well i broke it, and there wont be getting back together. 😭
I understand that but it looks like the relationship cant work until he deals with his issues and at some point you need to hold him accountable for his actions because two things can be true he can be kind but his actions from pulling away hurt you and its not good for you
100%
@FrostJet725 just get through today
@cheekz i haven't reached out yet.. im proud of myself.
@FrostJet725 that is amazing news you are soo incredibly strong 💪🏽 ❤️ 🙌🏽 👏🏽
@cheekz clearly not.. because I broke it. 😭
@FrostJet725 do not beat yourself up you are human we are not made to be perfect I am still proud of you. how are you feeling did he reply?
Thinking of you. You should set a NC goal and then see how you feel at the end of it. Without a goal, esch day will feel like an uphill battle. Go for 30 days maybe ? And I get what you mean by the cycle. We would also fight, make up , and then everything was okay for a while. But that was just the fear of leaving each other that was keeping us together.
Thanks yeah. I have set myself 30 days. It just honestly feels impossible. The urge today to reach out feels stronger than ever before. I dont know whats up. I cant focus.
my heart is heavy for you.i am sending you strength to not break NC I know it seems heavy right now but you have come sooo far from where you started dont loose the progress you have made for a brief moment of release nothing has changed he has not changed the circumstances are the same you will end up with the same result you gave the relationship chance after chance after chance you poured into the relationship as much as you could you did things different you evolved to try and help the relationship flourish and it did not .pour into yourself and your journey i know you can do it. is there anything that triggered these emotions today? are you reminiscing of what was or what it could of been? are the emotions tied to maybe something deeply rooted within yourself that needs to be resolved?
I would say its because normally at this time we talk and work things out. It seems to be the pattern and its difficult because he is a kind loving man who unfortunately deals with stress by pulling away due to his traumatic childhood. He genuinely isn't a terrible person and I miss him. But loving him cant fix him and it just hurts me.