This morning I woke up angry. angry at him, angry at myself for giving him so many chances. Everytime he came back he would do some work on himself and tell me I was worth fighting for. Things would be amazing for a few months and then the second he got triggered or stressed in life he would break up with me.
This last time he broke up with me in a text on the anniversary of my best friend's passing. he knew it was already a difficult day for me. This is why I can't do this again with him.
These past few weeks I haven't been taking care of myself, eating bad, not exercising properly. Its time to start focussing on my health again. I had worked really hard to get into shape and lose a bit of weight and its all come undone which is also making me feel really shit about myself.
The last 24 hours haven't been easy. But i didn't reach out and that's a win!
Last updated on:2026-07-17T23:00:11+05:30
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when i stopped making my whole day about whether they'd text, i started with one decent meal and one walk, and somehow that made getting through the next day a bit easier.
Its been a rollercoaster of a day for us both. Take things one day at a time. I haven't gone to the gym in a few weeks aswell so my nervous system settles down. We deserve a partner who is willing to reciprocate everything we pour into a relationship. Sending virtual hugs your way 🫂
Right back at ya 🫶
that breakup text on the anniversary of your best friend's passing is hard to read. 😞 has this been the longest you've gone without reaching out to him since everything started?
yes. I kept breaking NC every 3 days. But everytime I think about him sending that text specifically on that day, it gives me the push i need to be stronger. its been 4 weeks since that text... and this is the longest I've gone NC.
my ex kept coming back with promises too, and every time i believed THIS time would be different. the anger hit me way later, and honestly it was the first feeling that finally pushed me forward.
love this. can't wait to get to this point.
great job getting through day 9! you are worth fighting for - fight for yourself through this tough time because you deserve a love that doesn’t feel like a rollercoaster. and I think that love can start with you, show yourself kindness and grace - we are human and are bound to make mistakes
that's a great way of thinking about it. i will fight for myself . 🥰
im so proud of you! be kinder to yourself
thankyou 🫶
good for you and I know how hard that must be but that is a boy pretending to be a man no should break up with you on and off just because of stress if anything a healthy couple will lean on eachother when they are stressed and help pull eachother up, keep up the work and remember there is a whole community behind you
Thankyou. I just came back to read your kind message again. It really helped me today.