Alot has happend overnight actually..
So I was getting anxiety of him being with someone else..a teacher from my college...someone told me they are close and everything
so then I talked to my friend he helped me calmed down and gave me clarity of the situation and helped me to break down stuff about things and everything that I have to get out of all these things
then I contacted a friend of mine who is also the friend of the guy I was dating..he told me the truth about everything that the teacher and the guy I was with are just normal friends and he doesn't know how much they talk but they are normal friends.
And he also gave me clarity that the guy I was dating he got "irritated" by me and all the fights and the fact that I was calling that much, texting that much, opening the same topic again and again even after him saying he doesn't wanna be anything with me..he is irritated by all these things and he doesn't wanna be anything with me right now and he hasn't thought about the situation and the future..
To be honest you guys..like first when I got into with him I also felt irritated cause I wasn't getting any personal space and I also said to give personal space he didn't gave me the only thing I did wrong is that I adjusted with the situation at that time..I gave him the priority, value, time, everything when I wanted the same he just found it too much to handle..I feel angry honestly I feel alot today actually I slept at 3 AM almost because of all this
I just feel like I gave my all to someone who doesn't have the capacity to receive and accept I do accept that I wanted things atleast till college I wanted to stay together with him I didn't wanted to build a future but till college I wanted to stay that was all I wanted.
I don't know what I should feel but that's for sure that I'm not breaking no contact even though yesterday I had the urge to text I vented to my friend instead so I am not breaking no contact that's for sure
Last updated on:2026-07-26T06:02:11+05:30
Comments (13)
i’m proud of you for not texting him when the urge hit. i used to reach out every time i felt anxious, and it kept reopening the same wound. choosing your friend instead was a big step.
been there, spiraling over every little thing my ex did and finding out later my fear was louder than the truth. the hardest part was accepting i still had feelings while also seeing the ways we were hurting each other.
thanks for sharing this I feel a little good after hearing this that's its not only me who feels anxious..
do you feel like you were asking for too much, or were you asking for the same care and effort you were giving? i struggled with that question after my breakup too.
sometimes I blame myself..sometimes I blame him..it's mixed emotions in my mind honestly..
Yeah, it is hard and you are not supposed to feel anything. You just feel. Try to label the feelings and accept them. It will get better and better
why am I not suppose to feel anything..?
All we can do in this situation is look at how we can personally improve and grow and learn whatever it is we were meant to learn from it. it sounds like you were a little anxiously attached so perhaps some reading on that topic might be helpful.
do you think it's all my fault?..
@cookie that’s can’t be your fault. you gived all your love to someone who didn’t see it beaucoup he is too limited. you don’t have to question you. YOU ARE NOT THE PROBLEM ! ( sorry for my English I’m French)
@cookie absolutely not. sometimes its nobody's fault. sometimes two people can love each other but its just not right.
@SweetMe680 thank you that made me feel a little better
@FrostJet725 yeah maybe..I hope I can forgive and forget about everything and move on..