I genuinely thought I was moving forward but the last few days have drawn me back in a spiral. All the things I’m feeling are stemming from insecurity and nostalgia. I don’t want her back and I know this but it’s like my mind is being plagued with memories of her and I don’t like it. I’m allowing myself to feel it because that’s the only way I can get through it but it’s genuinely weighing me down. Every time I think i’m doing better I also feel as if I’m forcing it or I’m not doing enough to be better. I don’t know if this is a soul tie but even if it is why doesn’t she feel the same effects. Or maybe all I’m looking at is my perspective of pain and not stepping outside of it to see the bigger picture. Regardless I could really use some encouragement today
Last updated on:2026-07-26T04:16:25+05:30
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stopping the fight with my own thoughts. i quit asking why my ex wasn't hurting the way i was, because i never got an answer that gave me peace anyway.
healing is a rough road to take. sometimes its flat, and sometimes its full of holes and sometimes it cuts off to a ravine. hang in there. you got this!
has something happened these last few days that brought all of this back, or did it just hit out of nowhere? i remember one tiny reminder could knock me off my feet for a day.
A conversation with my sister
i had weeks where i thought i was finally okay, then one random day the memories came back so hard i felt like i'd gone all the way back to the start. i hadn't, it just felt that way.
These things come in waves. Hang in there, keep hold of yourself, let yourself feel but try not to let it stop you from getting out there and enjoying yourself. You gout this <33
Sounds like you're grieving. You have to replace the bad memories with new experiences. I feel ya. Stay busy, have fun, explore. It's not gonna happen overnight also
I think it is really commendable that you are allowing yourself to feel the pain and are working through it. My friend always tells me, your triggers are your lessons, so maybe whatever is coming back up is doing so because you still have some realisations that need to happen.
You are doing all the right things. Hang in there 🫶