I was born a bastard child from a secret fam. Dad was absent but also like terrible. Just saying that to set the vibe I got abandonment issues my life was never really good. Not awful but never actually likeable.
And this thing just won't leave me. Bout 5 years ago met someone on Tinder. We hooked up liked each other became partners. She was also kinda absent. I'd wait months for a text but I felt loved with her she respected me talked nice totally my type. Then two years ago she broke up with me. No idea why never told me. It felt super bad wanted her to stay so bad. Last December we texted a bit wanted to meet up had a day chosen but then she dropped that she was with someone new.
Told her she shoulda said that earlier. She said she wanted to tell me in person. I told her I didn't wanna see her then. Not even tryna get back with her just too painful. She said she wanted to get it but couldn't cause if it was me with someone else she wouldn't have rejected it.
Maybe I was weak maybe I was right but I tried to fix things after. Shared my thoughts and feelings but she said nothing. Sent her a few texts no reply. Then this month she blocked me. Pathetic but I can't stop thinking bout her even when I was with another girl.
Last month I dated a girl kinda similar reminded me of her in some ways. She also blocked me with the typical it's not you it's me line. And now I'm just stuck in the sadness. Don't wanna think bout it anymore but my mind won't let me. I was unemployed for like 2-3 months. Got back to the gym gained weight PRs are up got stronger but didn't feel that high I used to. Achievements feel meaningless. But I'm not gonna stop trying. All this work would be for nothing if I give up now. Got an interview tomorrow hope it goes well. Also cute muscular girl at my gym I like. Maybe I'll introduce myself. Can't lose anything at this point right?
Last updated on:2025-05-24T03:49:17+05:30
Comments (9)
Hey thanks a lot for sharing your story.You have really been some one who takes life head on.All the best for standing strong in life
Go introduce yourself to that girl at the gym. Not because you need love but because taking chances reminds you you’re still alive.
Your past hurt doesn’t define you how you choose to move forward does. Let every step remind you that you deserve better than someone who was half in half out.
I’ve had days where my mind wouldn’t shut up about someone who left me behind. But eventually I realized if he wanted to stay they he have. That truth hurt but it also freed me.
You lost people, but you never lost yourself. The gym the job interview your determination they prove you’re still here still moving forward even when it doesn’t feel like it.
Your heart isn’t broken it’s just looking for a home. Let it be yours first before handing it to someone else again.
I know what it’s like to meet people who remind you of the one that hurt you. But comparisons keep us trapped. Real connections start when you stop looking for ghosts of the past.
Blocking stings but sometimes silence is the closure we never got. You’re not pathetic for missing her you’re human. But healing starts when you stop chasing the past.
I’ve felt that same emptiness accomplishing things but not feeling the reward. Keep going even when it feels pointless. One day it’ll mean something again.