I think what I wanted the most

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I think what I wanted the most, what affects me so much after the breakup is the fact that this is my first time causing the issue. Being the main factor of the problem. I had no bad intentions yet I still messed it up. I struggled with victimizing myself sometimes because I really believed I had good intentions and I never noticed my own flaws. I’be been learning through my last few relationships that I make mistakes and my actions have consequences. Despite all that, what I wanted the most from my most recent breakup was forgiveness. I can’t demand or expect it, but I wanted it, in the most innocent way, like a child breaking a vase and looking to their parents with teary eyes. that kind of how I feel. with no contact going on, and learning to accept there’s no chance in getting back together, due to me and my faults. I don’t know what to do or where to go for forgiveness. I tried turning to the Lord, but I feel it’s something I need to do for myself or something.. it’s hard to explain. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

Last updated on:2025-07-22T06:10:54+05:30

Comments (8)

DriftFlex28
DriftFlex28 7 mths ago

the best forgiveness you can give yourself is the ability to learn and grow.

glogg258
glogg258 7 mths ago

Yo I feel this. Forgiveness is tough but it starts with accepting your flaws and giving yourself grace.

Zoakoami
Zoakoami 7 mths ago

don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re learning and evolving that’s all anyone can ask for

Milovin
Milovin 7 mths ago

this hit hard. You’re human mistakes happen. The fact that you’re reflecting shows you’re already on the right path

DooDOO
DooDOO 7 mths ago

it’s okay to feel this way. You’re learning and growing that’s what matters. Forgive yourself first the rest will follow

KGrant
KGrant 7 mths ago

this is deep Forgiveness starts with you be kind to yourself and remember growth comes from owning your mistakes

GlitchFlex51
GlitchFlex51 7 mths ago

I have alot of guilt for why my relationship ended also it caused him to fall in love with someone else and I regret alot of my actions and that part is so hard.

Unforgivable
Unforgivable 7 mths ago

at least we don’t have to carry our guilt alone. :)