how can he be so fine without me?

the question sounds like you’re comparing your inside to his outside. i’ve seen that before, one person falls apart in private while the other keeps a calm face. it doesn’t mean the pain isn’t there.

i remember staring at his photos thinking the same thing. i thought he was fine too, but later i found out he was just hiding it different. sometimes people just don’t show it the way we do.

it pissed me off how he looked fine while i was wrecked. like i was losing sleep, not eating, and he was out laughing with friends like nothing happened. made me feel like i never mattered.