it's day 18 my feelings mixed actually, i still think about him werid and stupid today i went to the beach and took some food and i started crying while eating because probably i miss him , and hate him i actually don't hate him i hate the fact he left me behind imagining him soo happy with his friends living his like i was never part of his life it's hurt really bad ..
Last updated on:2025-08-20T05:40:59+05:30
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what you said about imagining him happy with friends, that’s the part that hit me. i used to do that too, like my brain just filled in the blanks with him smiling without me. it made everything worse.
that mix is so real. i remember crying in random moments too, like grocery shopping. missing and hating at the same time. it’s messy, not stupid.
but it's feels stupid when you know they just give up on you and you still think about them
i get that. i once sat in my car eating fries and sobbing cause i kept picturing him out laughing somewhere while i was falling apart. i hated that he got to keep living like nothing happened.
unfortunately
it's okay to miss someone it's all part of the process
🫂