I don’t know how much more I can take. She broke up with me six months ago saying her parents wouldn’t agree to our marriage and that there was nothing she could do. But over time she started giving other reasons like how my private job wouldn’t allow me to give her enough time after marriage and more. It’s been six and a half months and I still haven’t recovered. I feel everything so intensely but I’m too exhausted to even explain it to anyone.
It’s like a mountain of emotions crashing down on me. I tried therapy but I couldn’t find the words to describe what I was going through. It felt pointless. I’ve been having multiple anxiety attacks every day. For the past five days I’ve been dreaming about her about the life we imagined together. It’s like I’m living those dreams in my sleep only to wake up to this pain.
I can’t focus on work. I’ve been taking leave after leave. And sometimes I feel like ending my life is the only way out. If anyone else is going through something like this please tell me how you got through it. I’ve tried everything going to the gym eating healthy working through a bucket list but nothing helps.
In a moment of anger and confusion I made a huge mistake. I agreed to marry someone else. Please don’t come at me saying I’m ruining her life I wasn’t in a stable place mentally. I didn’t know what I was doing. This feels like hell.
Last updated on:2025-10-17T17:39:03+05:30
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can i ask what made you say yes to that new marriage? like was it pressure from family or more of a “numb escape” kind of decision?
i get that nothing feels like it’s working right now, but please hold on. sometimes healing isn’t about doing more things, it’s just about surviving the same day a little easier than yesterday. talk to someone again, maybe a different therapist — the right one can really help when you find your words again.
my ex left me too after saying her parents wouldn’t agree, then later blamed my “unstable career.” i spiraled for months. therapy didn’t help at first either. i’d just cry through the sessions. it takes time for the heart to even catch up to what happened. you’re not broken for still feeling this deeply