i thought i could move on with ease after he gave me closure and one last bit of information that’s telling me to move on. but i still find myself reminiscing the good moments. i remember his smile, his laugh, his silly jokes. i remember when i fell asleep on the floor, he carried me to his bed. we were still living together that time. he’d give me a goodnight kiss on the cheeks after every argument we had. i ruined the potential of what our relationship could’ve had. it’s all my fault. sometimes i wish i know how to communicate better but i thought that’d only ruin things and it kinda did. i’m going back home for a while because my mental state got worse after the breakup. I’m taking a break from the semester because i genuinely can’t find the energy or motivation to continue studies under this condition. i wonder if it even is the right thing to do?even if i stay here for one more month i’d suffer longer because i still have emotional attachment to him. everything is a trigger to me and i can’t focus. i don’t have anyone to talk to either. it feels so lonely and painful dealing with all this alone. i feel like a coward.
i miss him. but he doesn’t miss me the way i do. if we’re meant to be, i hope we find our way back to each other. that we come back stronger, healed and ready to build a future together. but i don’t think it’s happening anymore. he’s already moving on, growing and building a life on his own….without me.
Last updated on:2025-11-08T05:47:44+05:30
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you mentioned going back home do you think being there will help you rest, or are you more scared of what being away from him will feel like?
i feel like going back home for a month or two will help me heal and detach fully cuz right now, being anywhere near him hurts
it’s okay to step back and take time off. sometimes healing needs space away from everything that reminds you of them. you don’t have to rush being okay even small breaths count right now.
i’ve been in that exact place blaming myself for everything, replaying every good memory until it broke me a little more. when my ex moved on, it felt like the world kept going without me. i used to think if i’d just “communicated better,” we could’ve made it. but sometimes love just collapses even when you’re trying your best. you’re not a coward. you’re just grieving someone who mattered.
thank you🩶i hope you don’t blame yourself anymore for what you didn’t know. please forgive yourself and let yourself heal by doing the things you love. it’s really sad we’re going through this while they’re probably out there living life as if nothing happened but eventually i’m gonna let go
On this platform, you will ALWAYS have someone to talk to. even me. I will always find the time to help someone that isn't doing well, just reach out. Moving farther away does help, but only temporarily. If you decide to come back, it will most likely be a emotional shock again, but eventually it will be weaker. Good luck on your journey!
thank you! i’m glad to be on this app because every one of you is supportive and understanding. i know it’ll stop the pain only temporarily but right now, i’m giving myself at least 2-3 months to stabilize emotionally before i decide
I’m going through the same thing right now 🥺but I think it might be worth finishing the month left off the semester. I have been struggling too and skipping classes, but today I went and pushed through a presentation which I was so anxious about. I feel SO good after it. I can’t believe I was crying over him this morning. It makes you feel so strong when you push through the pain and focus on yourself, I think it makes healing faster.
I think it could only get worse if you go home because then you’ll feel guilty about your studies too 🥺You are strong and I believe in you!! We’ll get through this
i’m happy for you that you pulled it off! you’re right. i should at least finish the semester but i already missed some assignments so my gpa will be affected. i feel like i could use a short break right now then maybe come back when i’m ready and fully detached