Day 11

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Day 11 and I feel more aware that nothing I thought was real

It was just manipulation, the desire for validation, gaslighting, control

I was honest and I really cared about him, I don't regret it

Before I couldn't see these things because I was so in love

When you give yourself time you see things much more clearly

I should mention that I've been in no contact before, but although I gave in, with each no contact I managed to gradually detach myself

For a long time I was in a kind of withdrawal, he being a narcissist, the effect he had on me was felt very strongly
He had made me dependent on him, my mood depended on the way he treated me, every fight ended with me being the one to blame, lately I was the one who was coming back, etc.

Healing begins with acceptance, no matter how much you think you didn't deserve this, until you accept it you can't heal.

This app really helps me not to give in

Last updated on:2025-12-15T19:17:56+05:30

Comments (4)

Memories01
Memories01 3 mths ago

when you say you were in withdrawal, what helped you the most to pull yourself out of that fog? like one thing that actually made you feel steady again?

WavySky681
WavySky681 3 mths ago

I took walks alone, analyzed the situation daily, watched videos on TikTok about healing, gave myself time

CastleKing
CastleKing 3 mths ago

your clarity grows when you stop feeding their control. healing really starts the moment you accept what happened

NIbbula01
NIbbula01 3 mths ago

dealing with a narcissist messes with your brain so badly. i was totally dependent on his moods too, and it took me months to see it clearly.