I've been in no contact several times, each no contact brought me clarity. A few days ago I replied to his message, I saw that I was more detached, although I had certain sensations of tension in my body.
After the conversation with him today, I can say that I ended up feeling disgusted by his behavior and his lack of empathy, I don't know how I could suffer so much from such a man. I didn't think I would use this word when it comes to him, but I actually feel disgusted
I was worried I wouldn't be able to get over him, but he proved to me for the thousandth time that I have nothing to feel sorry for!! He never deserved me and today I am more aware of that than ever. It seems unreal that I was able to go back to someone who treated me like that, but it is the biggest lesson for me
Some time ago, if I were to read what I wrote now, I wouldn't have thought it was about him. I always had doubts and saw certain red flags, but I always managed to see the good in him, I saw him as a good man who cared about me even though I didn't see any actions from him, I didn't see myself giving up on him completely.
Don't go back!!! If you know that person hasn't changed don't waste your time and energy on them!! A man who doesn't put in the effort and doesn't value you from the start, never will! He will prove to you over and over that you shouldn't have gone back
I know the problem is with me too because I attract toxic people, I need to work on that
What I experienced is really a lesson for me, I learned to stop being satisfied with just words, to stop accepting disrespect, manipulation, to know my worth, to know that I deserve more!!
Even if it was detached when we reconnected, if you are not 100% healed it can influence your condition even to a small extent and it is not worth it.
I realized that it didn't affect me anymore when I read what he wrote to me and I was like "I'm really disgusted, this man doesn't think about how I feel at all", without crying, without giving any explanations, I just said "it's over"
I don't wish him any harm, no matter what he did to me. I'm a good person and everyone will get what they deserve, I know he'll never change his behavior, but it's not my problem anymore. He won't be a part of my life anymore, it's all I can do.
Last updated on:2025-12-24T18:00:13+05:30
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when you said “it’s over” without explaining or crying, did it feel calm inside or more like shock? like did you feel relief or just this quiet finality?
I felt like I had nothing more to do, a deep disappointment.
my body finally caught up before my heart did. i also went back thinking “this time i’m stronger,” and damn… seeing the lack of empathy that clearly was brutal but freeing